Happy Happy Monday! With the start of July I’m looking back on the past 12 months as it marks a year since I quilt my job with the Australian Public Service. Twelve months of being my own boss and working towards my own dreams. I’d be lying if I said the last 12 months have been a dream, in fact at times it’s been more like a nightmare. It’s been a hard twelve months, not just for me but for my family as well. I thought when we made the decision for me to hand in my notice that we went into it eyes wide open, but with reflection it’s clear we had no idea what we were doing. Not because we were uninformed, but because life just has a way of throwing curve balls.
I severely underestimated the stress and pressure that not having a regular (or any!) income would put on me, and on HUBBY. I didn’t anticipate that I would lose my creative drive only a few months into the journey. I also didn’t factor in that I would spend so much time being crippled by the fear of making a mistake or losing money on something that wasn’t “a sure thing”. It’s been hard. Really hard. Harder than IVF hard. It’s taken it’s toll in so many areas of my life that I’m sure we’ll be feeling the ripples for years to come.
With all that said, I’d do it again in a heartbeat. I’ve grown so much in the past 12 months and our marriage is stronger because of the trials and tribulations. Our son is no longer in childcare and we’re spending more time together and he’s learning about being the master of his own destiny. (He’s also taken on a love of dancing while throwing fabric on the wall, just like his Mum.) Our family is also finding a routine in the crazy and I’m really loving our home life. Things are still rocky at times and I’m still trying to find my balance between work and home, but it’s getting better.
My creativity is also finding it’s own sense of normal again. I’m learning (slowly) what fuels and what cripples me. I’m saying no a lot more and I’m ok with that. I’m also learning to accept that not everything is going to bring me joy when I work so I need to listen to my instincts and trust in them. I need to relax into the fact that I can determine my own work and how an income can grow from that. I also need to accept that I will probably never make the same amount of money I was making in my executive level job with the government, and that’s ok.
This week I’m going to sit down and do a plan for the next twelve months and revisit my goals. I need a roadmap if I’m going to navigate the next twelve months without going insane. I’m excited about the next twelve months, but it’s a calmer excitement then the first twelve months. I’m settling into myself and learning more about the world and my place in it and that’s a pretty special time of life. I hope you have a super fabulous week filled with love, laughter and fabric fondling!
Peta at She Quilts A Lot has put together her 10 Tool Tips for Quilters and I was surprised to see some of the things I do made the list (great minds and all that). I’m a big fan of #7 on the list. Click here to read more.
Loving this simple but effective Two Step Quilt Block (and free tutorial) from Missouri Star Quilt Co. Click here to read more.
Seems everyone loves a good pincushion as much as I do, so here’s a great pincushion tutorial from A Girl in Paradise for using up those small scraps of your favourite fabrics. Click here to read more.
I’m starting to think about traveling handmade in October when I head to Houston and that means it’s time for a new travel bag. This version of the Betsy Bowler Bag made me swoon and there’s even a video tutorial on how to make it. I’m adding this to the list! Click here to read more.
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