Bet you’re wondering where I’ve been… well I’ve been to see the Queen. No, that’s not true. I’ve just been suffering from ‘Sleeve Fatigue’.  I’ve just felt like everything has been revolving around my eating and I don’t deal with that at the best of time.  Let-a-lone when I’m going through a stressful time.  So something had to give and unfortunately it was my blogging.  But I’m trying to get back on track and the first step in that is getting back to my weekly weigh day and stats.  So here they are:

I’d love to say that I’ve been working hard and sticking to eating right, but that would be a lie.  It’s just luck and stress.  Admittedly I can’t eat large amounts of anything so that helps, but still I’ve been enjoying some treats lately that I really should be passing on.  I haven’t even looked at doing anything remotely exercise related.  I just can’t be arsed.

Our house is going through some worrying times at the moment and I’ve allowed that to be my focus.  What I should be doing is concentrating on doing the things that will make a difference and stop with the worrying.  There’s nothing I can do except stick to the plan and wait it out.  So I should try and remember that instead of freaking out and worrying about things I have no hope of changing.

In positive news I managed to get into my favourite pair of jeans which I’ve been holding on to for at least three years in the vain hope I’d one day get back into them.  That day was Wednesday.  Love it!  I’ve also managed to wear some shirts that I’ve not been able to put on since I purchased them.  I’m getting a whole new wardrobe without the expense of having to go and buy new clothes.  It’s kind of exciting.

I’m also really jazzed about being so close to double digits.  Only 5.7kgs to go.  If I was really motivated I’d jump on the treadmill and try and rush to that milestone.  Who knows?  Maybe this rainy weather will motivate me.

I’m still struggling with not being able to eat the amounts I used to.  Sometimes it would be nice to finish a meal.  Although at other times I’m really glad that I can’t eat the amounts I used to.  I guess it’s all a balancing act.  I’ve got to learn to be more accepting.  This is how it’s going to be.  If I want to be able to rejoice in the weight coming off then I’ve got to learn to be happy with the limited amount of intake.  It’s just an adjustment, and as with most changes in my life I’m kicking and screaming about it all.

I’d love to say I’m setting some mini goals for the next week, but I’m struggling with being positive at the moment.  Maybe by the middle of the week somethings will have resolved themselves and I can focus on the positives again.  Please GOD let me get some good news this week. Amen.