I’m alive! Yay! I’m a week post-op for my hysterectomy and yesterday was the first day I’ve felt remotely human since the whole thing happened. The surgery went well, but my anxiety provided some complications after it with my heart rate being a little unstable for awhile there. I’d love to say I’m super strong and the whole thing didn’t phase me, but I’d be a massive liar. I was scared witless (hence the anxiety being an issue!). I’ve come out of the procedure minus a uterus and up a referral for a mental health plan to get my anxiety under control. It’s something I should have done years ago, but I’ve managed to push it around so that I could ignore it and tell myself it’s only surgery that brings it out in me.
I was thinking about it while laying in hospital last week, I’ve been undergoing some sort of medical procedure/issue/management for the past 12 years. It started with IVF and it’s just snowballed from there. We did 6 years of fertility treatment which resulted in a pregnancy, which was perfect except it started the ball rolling on my mismanagement of my anxiety. The birth of our son was great, it just sent my anxiety into overdrive and I’d quite comfortably say that I had postpartum anxiety issues. I didn’t deal with it at the time and just chalked it up to being a new parent.
6 months after his birth I had an emergency gall bladder removal. Then my endometriosis started to flare and it’s been a downhill slide into a hysterectomy from there. With the unexpected passing of a good friend earlier this year it just seemed to tip my anxiety into a position where it’s now having major physiological impacts on me. (It’s not normal to have a panic attack in post operative recovery!) So, I’m embracing the reality that I have more-than-the-average-bear levels of anxiety and I need to go get it worked on. Which really, isn’t that big a deal in the scheme of things. I’d much prefer going to talk about my anxiety then dealing with what I have for the past year!
I wish I could explain how happy and enthusiastic for the future I am right now. To be in a position where I am looking at a future that is pain free, period free and I’m able to enjoy life without the constant worry hanging over my head is really invigorating. I’ve been laying on my bed thinking about all the things that I’m going to do in 2019 and it’s bringing such a big smile to my face and my heart. I’m so very thankful to be in a position where I could access the healthcare I needed and to have my Mum here to keep me company while I recover. I feel so very lucky this week and that’s a great feeling. Now, I’m off back to bed to recover properly so I can enjoy the coming years! Wishing you a week filled with love, laughter and much fabric fondling!
I’m looking for some holiday crafts I can do with the kiddo this year and I love this unicorn felt ornament tutorial from Stephanie at Swoodson Says. Click here to read more.
It’s time to get the festive jumpers ready! Love this super simple tutorial from Tilly and the Buttons. Click here to read more.
I love a good ugly festive sweater and if you’re looking to immortalise some in your quilting check out this Ugly Sweater Quilt Block by Kid Giddy. Click here to read more.
Lori Holt has a great tutorial on how to make these flower pot blocks. Click here to read more.
These soft pumpkin chocolate chip cookies from Simple Simon & Company look delish! Click here to read more.
I love to share the cool things that I find during my week of surfing the internet window-shopping and splurging. Here’s my top 4 from this week:
A: I’m loving: I love this version of the Sewology pattern that Pink Door Fabrics have put together as a kit using Alison Glass fabrics. Click here to purchase this on Etsy.
B: I’m adding: Every time I see these I think about the amazing things Kristy from Quiet Play has done with them. Click here to purchase this on Etsy.
C: I’m drooling: I think I may have shared this before because I’m still loving this palette. Click here to purchase this on Etsy.
D: I’m enabling: An awesome bundle for those looking to stock up for their stash. Click here to purchase this on Etsy.
You can find the latest information about the following events by clicking the on the relevant link below:
Raylee at Sunflower Stitcheries & Quilting is hosting a Finish-along for those that are looking to turn their completed #100Days100Blocks2019 blocks into a finished quilt. You can find out all the details by clicking here.
I love seeing the quilts and projects that are made during my sew-alongs or from my book and I’ve decided I’m going to start sharing them with you all so that you can see the amazing work being done within this fabulous creative community. If you’d like to have your work shared please reply to this email with 1 photo of your work made during one of my events, from one of my patterns or from my book. Make sure the image is well lit and clearly shows your work so people can truly appreciate your handy work. Include the details of what you’ve made and it could end up on my blog and in one of my newsletters. If you have any questions, reply to this email and we’ll get it sorted together.
Have you got an event, a charity drive, a pattern release, a class schedule or something else that you think my community would be interested in hearing about? Why not drop me a line and let me know – I’d love to share it with my readers. Click here to email me.
- Kristin Esser, of Simple. Handmade. Everyday., is hosting a hand pieced sewalong kicking off in January 2019. You can find out more about it by clicking here.
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