Well the day that I’ve been thinking about for months is finally here…. our little boy starts school today. It’s been a weekend of mixed emotions. I’m so excited for him because he seems so excited to be starting school. He’s been talking about it since before pre-school finished. He’s looking forward to getting back into learning, playing with his friends and seeing what “big boy” school is all about. But on the other hand I’m sad. I’m sad because it’s the end of an era for our family.
We decided last year that we wouldn’t have any more children. The combination of IVF, my age, my physical conditioning and our lives has meant that having more children isn’t something we feel like we’re in a position to do. It was a weird decision to make and it’s one that I constantly think about, but know deep down that it was the right decision to make. So when it comes to the Little Man starting school it’s signals a lot of things, but one of the biggest is that our lives as parents to small kids is over. We’re never going to walk this path again and that’s a little bit sad.
I’ve been so blessed to have spent these last 5 years as the primary carer. To have been home with him, playing, watching, learning and stealing hugs whenever I wanted them but now he’s going to be in school five days a week for a majority of the year and I’m going to miss him. I’m going to miss just pottering around the house with him. I’m going to miss seeing him grow in front of my eyes and I’m going to miss the laughter. For six hours a day my little boy is going to be with other people, learning and doing things without me. Which is exciting and the way it should be – but a little part of me is jealous, sad and fearful. It’s a big world out there and it’s so easy to have your heart and dreams trampled on. Part of me just wants to keep him wrapped up here, safe with me.
The thing is though, that wouldn’t be good for either of us. Just as he needs to get out there and spread his wings and learn about the world he lives in. I need to do the same. It’s the first time in 5 years that I’ll have time to myself again. The first time since we decided to give small business a try that I will have big chunks of uninterrupted time to work on the business. And that’s freaking.me.out! No more will I have the excuse to fall back on that I have a child at home who’s my priority. No more will I be able to think to myself “well if I just had the time I could have…” I’m going to have the time. I’m going to have the space. There’s no more excuses. This is it. Sink or swim it’s time for me to make things work (and to do the work). That’s a scary place to be.
It’s also a lot of pressure for a Monday. So I’m going to stop thinking big picture and I’m going to concentrate on the smaller things, like getting the boys ready for the day, not crying at school assembly and cracking on with my to-list. I’m also looking forward to hearing from you about what goals you conquered last week – so remember to hit reply and tell me how your week went. In the meantime, I’m off to hide tissues in my handbag because you just know I’m not going to be able to hold back the tears. Wishing you a fabulous week filled with love, laughter and fabric fondling.
Last year I made a quilt for Love Patchwork & Quilting using the S.S. Bluebird line from Cotton + Steel. It has to be one of my favourite quilts (and it’s currently on our bed). Love Patchwork & Quilting are now offering an image from the photo shoot of that quilt as February’s Desktop Wallpaper for mobile devices, tablets and computers. Yay! So you can spend a month with me under my quilt! *wink* Click here to read more.
If you’re looking for a slow stitch project that’s a little bit different check out this free tutorial for making the Llama Love Garland on American Felt & Craft. Click here to read more.
Ribbons and Bows is a new free pattern available on Moda Bake Shop. It’s by Sarah Zimmerman of Cedar Fork Stitches. Wouldn’t it make the cutest birthday quilt? Click here to read more.
Rachel at Stitched in Color has a great tutorial on how to work out exactly how big you need to make a quilt for it to lay on your bed the way you want it to. Click here to read more.
Shari over at Good Food Week is sharing a delicious recipe for Quick Mexican Rice and Quesadillas, and as someone who just bought herself a tortilla press this one is calling my name. (You don’t need a tortilla press to make the recipe!) Click here to read more.
In 2018 I’m going to be travelling around Australia teaching people how to fussy cut and I can’t wait. If you’d like to take a class with me I have the follow classes currently available:
- Fussy Cutting FUNdamentals @ Fabric Sauce – Saturday 10 February 10:00am to 3:30pm. Learn everything you need to know about how to fussy cut for patchwork and English Paper Piecing. We’ll cover Improvisational Fussy Cutting, Traditional Fussy Cutting and Fussy Cutting for Colour. I’ll talk about fabric selection (including how to work out exactly how much to buy), colour theory and where to find those unusual prints to make your work pop. To book click here.
- Fussy Cutting FUNdamentals @ Amitie Textiles – Saturday 17 February 10:00am to 3:30pm. Learn everything you need to know about how to fussy cut for patchwork and English Paper Piecing. We’ll cover Improvisational Fussy Cutting, Traditional Fussy Cutting and Fussy Cutting for Colour. I’ll talk about fabric selection (including how to work out exactly how much to buy), colour theory and where to find those unusual prints to make your work pop. To book click here. (Hurry – there’s ONE spot left!)
- Amazeballs Tote Bag @ Amitie Textiles – Sunday 18 February 10:00am to 3:30pm. Using the Amazeballs Tote pattern from my book, Fussy Cutters Club, we’ll learn all about improvisational fussy cutting to make unique and one-of-a-kind projects. Participants will learn basic bag construction and techniques for adding fussy cutting to all their projects. To book click here. (Hurry – this one’s nearly sold out!)
- Fussy Cutting FUNdamentals @ Hobbysew Belconnen – Saturday 24 February 10:00am to 3:00pm. Learn everything you need to know about how to fussy cut for patchwork and English Paper Piecing. We’ll cover Improvisational Fussy Cutting, Traditional Fussy Cutting and Fussy Cutting for Colour. I’ll talk about fabric selection (including how to work out exactly how much to buy), colour theory and where to find those unusual prints to make your work pop. To book click here.
Have you got an event, a charity drive, a pattern release, a class schedule or something else that you think my community would be interested in hearing about? Why not drop me a line and let me know – I’d love to share it with my readers. Click here to email me.
- Elise from Elise & Emelie is hosting The Purse Clasp Book Sew Along and it kicks off on February 19. There’s heaps of prizes, some great skills you can learn and some fun projects to make. Find out more by clicking here.
- The Naples Quilters Guild (in Florida) is hosting it’s annual quilt show February 23 – 24. The Guild consists of 320+ members and has been around for 30+ years. The event looks like fun and they’re also raffling off an amazing version the “Quilter’s Patch” quilt designed by Laundry Basket Quilts. Download the show flyer by clicking here.
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